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I never been in such a great crossroads where I have to choose what's next...
Past few weeks have been a difficult dilemma.. been praying for direction.
Opportunities sometimes do come altogether at the same time, that's where u get the headache part..

To be offered a very Very Very good design firm in a place where i dream to work in, a scholarship to either go further or choosing to be better equip in God's business... deep down in my heart, im really humbled and thankful....but i guess im giving all up to do what im exactly in here for in the first place.

5months may be long...u may think..after you finish it...ppl out there may already found a place, earning big money etc etc.. Maybe i may be wrong, people may said.. tat's silly.. yes im afraid to think what will happen after next...but one thing i know for sure is that every person who ever did anything amazing started out just a bit afraid. It is always a risk to try something new..there's always a first time.

as i reflect, many of the times, we prayed.. "God, we say we are willing to sacrifices anything for you"..when the real thing comes, is a different story.

I was in a bus with one of my friend yesterday, as we were talking, he striked me with a phrase, "not my will, but your's be done" haaa sometime we tend to forget... actually all the awards, achievements, good grades, recognitions, great ideas that i got for the past few years cant be done by my strength alone without the grace and favor of God. I cant help but to tear in the bus..(haa seems like God always touch ppl's heart in bus journey) I know where God is leading me...I guess i just wanna give God those 5 months of my time to be trained under Him..

I prayed this morning to get my final confirmation from God before sending emails to the two creative directors to forgo it. haaa man...was i nervous..superb...I even closed my eyes to click "sent" haa but i will nv forget tat He is the reason im doing all this for.

Though is super hard to let go, i cried so much, but i think whatever that is so precious to u, u let go for a cause that is higher and greater than you, placed it in the Master's hand, it will be doubled and multiply...just like all the testimonies u heard in church...

I just need trusts and believe, but nonetheless, i felt the peace of God right now. If He has the power to bring me here, he will take care of everything. I may not know what will happen next, or what's in front of me, those offers may or may not come again, tat doesnt matters anymore..cos that's what make it more exciting...i believe that's living life... dun u think so? showing God is real at the end of everything.. if i fail to see the hands of God, i knew he wants me to trust in his heart.

haaa if ever one day, u are to be in the same situation as me, choosing the spiritual side wont go wrong...at least if ever u fail, u will just fall back on God...that's the wonders of it...

Im going sot! and im gonna make it worth the trip:) im not those studies, theory, writing report person.. but if i cant express my answers in words during exams, i can draw haaaa

dear God.

U blew my mind once again. I never knew i could do that if not for u.

thank U for seeing me through this long four months. u somehow made everything come together. u taught me perseverance. each time i came crying on my knees, because i didn't know how else to continue, u were there to guide me. with every weekend (except for 1 weeks) during FYP spent in Ur house, putting ur work first, things still turned out well in the end. indeed the verse,

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

is so true. thank U Lord for everything, for raising me up to more than i can be. :)

so glad that it end it all so beautiful and well.

The EE gave a very well respond, were greatly impressed at the end. told me to sell my brilliant idea in japan, i could earn big bucks. haaa i never think that far..

it's a valuable and rewarding journey of observing, learning, research, sketches, experimentation and making mistakes. All these stages should not be overlooked as they lay a strong foundation on a piece of design, with various possibilities of concept and execution which makes a piece of work not just aesthetically stimulating, but also a piece of work with value and philosophical depth in it.

Despite all the sleepless nites, 'scratch-head' days, and fair share of tears, after all, is the achievements and satisfactions that is sought after.

someone did asked before, why did we work so hard, its just some design kinda stuff, simply apply thru some beautiful colours and pictures, u will make it if it's cool.. u are wrong...

u may say that we are freak...ya u are right, we are considered freaks. We achieve fulfillment that others might not understand, Without design, u wont have a toilet bowl to seat in. without design, the world will lack good people like us. design is a sacrificial act. we give up life for design. yes, without sleeping, even skipping meals, no time for doctors. True design cannot be described by words. Words can speak for design. :)

and now.... the feeling of "what's next??" is slowly seeping in.

More of dipshow updates coming up...too much to record down...hundreds of pics....too much to say

apparently we tot we gonna end earlier after internal assessment. but those few of us kena-ed external examiners, one's a US professor, Tom.K and beng from onion design.







were so happy that we did it after the presentation for the external examiners. we were all dressed pretty down for the school that day but it doesnt matter cos we were all so tired staying up till morning for days.

The ee were definitely friendly and sincere... Tom. K look really alike like Tom. Hanks...we saw their passion and admired their passion for design...all of us can agreed that we have walked out that place greatly inspired.

be back on march 15th.
goodbye

from Urs truly
good girl,
maybelline

Happy New Year! I had a great fun time farewell 2007! how about everyone? 2008 is gonna be a brand new exciting year for everyone! Chill and have fun embracing at the same time!

I had a great time counting down with my BIG FAMILY! u know last time old ppl were famous for booming a football club... I mean really big gathering with all the long lost cousins, uncles, aunts. Ever since grandma and grandpa passed away, we never had such gathering other then all the weddings...we all agreed that it was a gathering way overdue…but this was a great start to many more to come. we already planned for cny, chalet at july etc...i cant wait! its gonna be fun!

Had the gathering at costal del sol..at the upmost 30th floor with roof-top bbq, overlooking the whole view of east coast seaview! the view was breath-taking! it was magnificent!

The fireworks were just in front of us! When the clock strike 12, the yachts were sounded with fire lights shoot high up in the sky...man i was awestricken. as if my time stops...and nothing seems too huge or daunting or impossible to conquer...if u know the feeling haaa

The place was bought with the money the family got from selling grandpa and grandma landed property, which i used to name it my "childhood kingdom" and become a place where we will go there now to have our gatherings, whoever wanna stay there just stay etc..somewat like our family country club haaaa

though the place was beautiful but i just ..kinda miss the "childhood kingdom". I used to stayed there during weekdays when i was young and grandpa will always send me to sch. I love that big place where my cousin and i will always play hide and seek, build our own adventure map and explored the whole landed estates with our "ah beng biscuits" which we called it our own rations. climbing trees, drains and using cardboard rolling down the hills were exceptionally memorable. we used to call everyone our friends, making new friends, being chased by rich tai tai dogs, playing new games and banging into some fruit trees etc was superb fun! we were all so innocent! we just believed that the world were at our own fingertips, and in most cases it was.

woooohoooo anyway i cant wait for the next gathering. I just love and treasure the unity and love my big family have right now. love it!

wow! my 2 weeks break from fyp is coming to an end. It also gonna be another NEW YEAR! I remembered how my peers and i struggled thru crit 2 with the boss of vsc, lille our godma and lynette....yeah 3 powerful lecturer. Here are the 2 shoots we took while he s doing wat he love best...pulling our moral 30feet down.



Dear God, crit 3 is coming..been hearing some of my peers broke down, cry, complain, stress out, freak out becos of the ever demanding expectation piling up from fyp..i pray tat u ll look after every single one of us, comfort us when we need it. i depend on you. amen.

cool...i love to know my God can take care of it whenever i give my best in each shot. I always remind myself is the journey and process that makes me stronger, not the destination and so i wont always wanting to faster get rid of it and refrain it from moulding my character and perseverance. I will learn to seize every moment of it and find fun thru the hardcore journey, not forgetting to play hard and enjoy at the same time:)

anyway! Christmas was filled with dinners after dinners after gatherings after gatherings...the one i love the most was our annual christmas night gatherin held at ivan's house every year with abundance of food and movies thru the night...with only just the closest ones around, letting our hair down and getting away from the daily hustle and bustle of life, sharing joy, sharing love. though its simple its a luxury!



haaa no photos taken tat night...only me..while waiting for the rest to reach...see how content i am! I'm so blessed whenever im with them:) at least i know tat if ever i fall back, they will catch me!

arghh...been staying up almost everyday...yvonne gonna kill me! haa she's my panda eye savior! oh anyway my dear besties just open her new facial "laboratory"...her official opening will be feb...congrats!

waaa...ppl Asthetician manager now ah...owned lab...owned car...the last time i remember we were still playing hard and seating beside each other disturbing ppl at secondary sch, "pon sch", art exams all heckcare and play runaway...olevel still went swimming every early morning while ppl mugged hard... but still could get our 1st and 2nd place academically...made ppl wondered how we could scored well while disturbing ppl.! haaa those were the days...

wooo im so proud of you! will send you flower so u can "show off" outside ur lab..and also my b/w series abstract pictures to hang around ur lab....till then...will blog more about that later.

Hello! Merry Christmas everyone! Just as i tot i wont have a nice christmas this year due to fyp, it just turn around and proven me wrong. Christmas is always a time of so much love in the air~~ and giving! and how can i miss the time of giving...! Good ol' SouperBIG is working just at the right moment with the ever cold freezing fosty dec weather! I gave this to all my friends! Ohhhh chilll...just in time to send for printing and pasting and carrying 24 cans of campbells from supermarket.



Bring me home this christmas and open your cupboard where you store all your canned food products, place me over them and you'll get a nice happy quote each time you see me! plus i'll make your baked beans look coool...



Have a warm and comfort Christmas around your cozy fireplace over a hot bowl of heartwarming soup accompanied specially during this cold fosty season! arghhh...



side track: ber pledge to update her blog everyday, or maybe should say...OFTEN...for the pleasure and benefit and goodwill and advantage and love from all her dear friends who comes and check pesicola 123 day by day and found the same old entries stuck for weeks. u know who u are! i love u guys for taking care and show interests in my life. u are all so wonderful and dear to me, i hug and love u all.

I ate too much. this will be my breakfast, lunch. dinner. Period.

whole day enriching trips during design festival..how can i forget myself! :P Enjoy my "enjoyment spastic face" shots!..

( useless enjoyment )

Below are some of the many many pics i took from utterubbish...tooo many...no time to do any nice montage. think i will just let the pic speaks for itself. alright enjoy folks. The conferences was great, we had a great laugh with Marti Guixe when he shared his food design.

There was another exhibition by Pascal Rostain and Loic Malle that somehow kinda exciting. its a propaganda...featured trashes ppl like madonna, sharon stone and other famous hollywood stars had thrown away...while the objects may be mundane, they throw up perplexing questions about people, and demonstrate how someone else's trash can really be another's treasure.

overall, it was utterly great! Erik Kessels with his ever humorous advertising won the audience as usual. Patrick Scallon with his many pieces of brilliant design of fashion labels...he shared with us his...pokecards jackets...garments made of sneakers...newspapers...bags...ponpon and many many interesting pieces.

( Useless Exhibition )

Utterubbish conference and exhibition was superb superb great! came back with goodies also. Went ARCHIFEST also. Perlie and edwin happened to be intern at utterubbish...how can i missed meeting them!

tomorrow im going for 20/20, groovevision, rojak10, design propaganda, red dot, maybe touchpoint and back to utterubbish again in the morning.
waaa so many, dunno can finish a lot.
perlie was saying, hey we gotta plan an itinerary man. haa
i love it. this is the only time i can get away and savour on other's great gurus works, warm up my juices.

so till then, back for more visual too.

YEahhh!!! very exciting!

must be somewhere in the journey
somehow i went wrong make a wrong direction
if not i wont feel this way
i must be hitting hard tis time round

Im kinda at the crossroads right now. So i'll see where God takes me from here on. Im not exactly the happiest person alive yet for some reasons.... i am thankful. Yes, i truly am. Every breath that you've given me, i give thanks & hold dear. And that really is saying a lot coming from me.

On good days, u find yourself jumping out of ur bed, excited to start a new day. On other days, u just want to curl up in a corner & die. What drives u? What motivates you? What spurs u on to greater heights?
I hear your suger-coated whisperings in my ear, I hear you sowing the seeds of confusion.
"Why do u even bother??" "This is all pointless, u know it is." I can choose to believe in the lie.
Or i can choose to listen up to the other voice saying... "Because there's still good left in this world"

Do u honestly believe in that?? Do you draw strength from the words spoken: "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you" Will you choose to lay claim upon the promises made? Or will u choose to accept things as they are?? To stare defeat in the face & accept that it is afterall your lot in life.

Some people may say that religion is all but a crutch for the weak. I know that before. I've thought about it the same way. I've said the exact same things. Yet at the end of the day, i find myself facing up to the only one thing that matter in this life.

It's true, you know i can do nothing right without you.

And i refuse to believe in the lie that my life suck & i'm better off never being born. That's so juvenile. I have been blessed with so much, so much... yet i fall into that trap, that web of lies that Satan has been weaving in & out of my thoughts perpetually. Gloominess should had already become a thing of the past. Because as i look within, there shouldn't be any reasons to feel this low, this down. On the contary, i realised that i've had almost EVERYTHING going on for me. Sometimes Father, u blow my mind. And i cannot help but feel a little childish, silly & juvenile for giving in to the negative moments... when all this while, u've been rocking my world.

i'm still learning. i'm always learning. And i thank you for ur patience & ur grace.

exhibition from 28 nov to 16 dec.
2 days conference 29th to 30th nov @ victoria concert hall. Tickets at 199, student 99.



Utterubbish is a unique design event that presents ideas, works and exhibits by 30 leading international and local designers and creators unified in their exploration on how design can create value for individuals, society and the world, whether Social, Cultural, Emotional, Functional, Economic, Commercial or Intellectual.

Featuring



Trent Jansen



Design&Disasters



Jonathan Harris



Marti Guixé - Food Design



Stefan Sagmeister



treasured trash

and my favourite Mads Hagstrøm - FLOWmarket!




Yeah!!!!

its gonna be good stuff and interesting. so do go!
more info on utterubbish here!

Haaahaaahahahaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaa


spore design festival comin. i hope this year will be interesting.
do check out the events and exhibitions happening.

hello hello are you here?
it's pretty dark here
i cant find you
anybody there?






where are you christmas
why can't I find you
why have you gone away
where is the laughter
you used to bring me
why can't I hear music play
my world is changing
I'm rearranging
does that mean christmas changes too
Why can't I hear music play

christmas is just one month away.. somehow i dun feel the same mood i used to have:(

crit1 just finished. crit2 is on the 18thdec. just before my cell group camp. crit3 is 22th jan. crit4 is 12th feb. final internal crit will be 19th to 22th feb. external will be 4th to 7th march follow by dipshow. In the middle of all, consult. after consult. my months are filled. im moody.

dear God, help.

ohh where are u my dear chinese new year?
i pray you be found

hello. how is all my friends doing? its been long. hope all of u are doing fine.
been super busy for the past few months.
tomorrow is monday again; a brand new week, the start of another new battle.
im on for it, just that this time round,
im grateful that im doing even closer together with you.

see you later friends, lets start the ball rolling and do something new and exciting tomorrow again.
im doing tat.
you know i cant stand dull, boring mainstream living. it kills me.
have a great week ahead.
have fun.
be right back:)

left behind pieces of test-prints from publication. Decided to recycle it and do something for my friends..daa da! notebooks for all their sketches and doodlings!



already given some away...im so happy!

i've been eating home often now...mom's a vegetarian..so i get to eat green every single day, not forgetting those organic food and interesting fake stuff like fake meat fake ham fake abalone some more haaa..ohh and i have different kinds of mushrooms at home! i love mushrooms! so here are some oiishi vegetarian food that i went through this few days..



handmade noodles soup...sometime i have ban-mia for supper..pure healthy. i heard those who sing often like those die-hard choir guru who cant take spicy must take soupy thingy to protect their vocal thingy...i reckon this.



honfa soup! tats the best! for dinner! i get hungry easily so need to have 3 bowls of that to stay full.
u can see i need chilli for both soupy noodle. mom sometime convert to fried dry with lots of chilli like meepok ta ah!







last but not least, mom is good at making salad for breakfast. im amazed by her strawberry salad dressing. so u will find..grapes kiwi tomatos eggs strawberries and all the diff green forest inside. i can have one big tub all by myself! iichiban!